Inner Darkness

You know, I was beginning to forget what this felt like. I feel afraid and alone. I feel very cold. I kind of just want to go chain-smoke a bunch of cigarettes. All I want is for some guy to come over and snuggle with me in bed. I want him to hold me and run his fingers through my hair and tell me that everything will be ok.

I want him to tell me, "Those thudding sounds mean nothing." "The police are not coming here to get you." "You don't have to be afraid, I'm here for you and I will not hurt you."

Yet that ain't gonna happen. I have nobody here.

Instead I will list the things I have learned about people, and how much I hate them all.

1. People make you think that they like you, and then you learn that they don't.
2. People make you trust them, and then they betray you.
3. People will tell your deep dark secrets to the world.
4. All people do is lie. People lie unwarranted, volunteering lies and falsehoods. People lie when you confront them with the truth. They would rather spend time arguing with you and denying things than tell you that you are right, there is a problem.
5. People make you feel loved and safe, and then they simply stop caring at the drop of a hat.
6. People are a bunch of horrible little shits, and I hate them.