Wake Up

Well, I was completely wrong about anything going on with T.J. I had the following wake-up call last night:

T.J.: Did you ask me if I was sad? Or did I imagine that.
Me: You imagined that.
T.J.: Weird, must have dreamed it.

Then I got all excited. He had dreamed about me! It was a good sign. I still meant something to him subconsciously, at least.

T.J.: So what did you want me to do with your novel notes?

(Oh yeah. He had volunteered to help me with my novel research.)

Me: I just wondered if my lists were missing anything. If you agreed with the order of emotional pain that I suggested, or if you think it should have a different order.
T.J.: No I think you covered it all. I've been going through a tough time myself.
Me: Oh, what's going on?
T.J.: My girlfriend and I are taking a break :/

GIRLFRIEND??! Thanks for mentioning that. It would have been nice to know that, even though you were asking me about MY love life, and when I asked you about yours in response, you cracked a joke about having "many, many girlfriends."

And thanks for flirting with me when you were drunk. I'm sure she appreciated that.

Me: That sucks. Do you think it will sort itself out with time?
T.J.: I don't know, but I really hope so. I know what I have to do, but I just need this girl to give me another chance.

He then proceeded to ask me a bunch of questions about myself and about my life. Why are you asking? This was the only time he's opened up even slightly about himself in the past 6 months we've been talking again. Why does he want to know all about me, and not share an equal amount about himself?

Cameron thinks he's trying to keep me there just in case it doesn't work out with this other girl. Well, fuck that. I don't want to be anyone's second choice. Obviously he doesn't feel the same about the end of our relationship-- that it ended before it's time. After all, he did decide to end it because I wasn't worth long distance.

Sigh.

Then right after that, one of my friends posted a thing dissing women (I guess he just got out of a relationship). This one guy commented on it saying, "Guys are so simple. Everything we say is either the truth or a lie for personal gain."

I responded to that, saying, "So how are we supposed to tell the difference???"

He responded saying, "Learn how to read people. We are simple creatures, it shouldn't be that hard. Some people are harder to read than others though."


Well, it IS hard. We can't fucking read minds.

He does have a point though. I should spend some time learning how to read people better. I'll think of it as research for my book.