Belonging

Have you ever had that feeling where you go to somebody's house and you feel like you're meant to be there?

I have.

It felt so natural for me to be in Tim's apartment. I got along so well with all of his friends. Basically the entire night consisted of everyone laughing ridiculously hard. I fit right in :)

It felt really good to fit in. It was one of those groups where everyone makes fun of everyone else in a good-natured sort of way. Exactly my thing haha. It's the sort of group I wish I had. I hope that I can spend more time with them, even if Tim transfers to Las Vegas.

Tim is a wonderful guy. I like him very much. He was including me in the group's inside jokes. He was very considerate towards me, making sure that the window was closed when I said I was cold, and giving me a comfy blanket to snuggle up with. He had made a bunch of appetizers that all had bacon in them, and when I told him I didn't like bacon, he got me some non-bacon food so that I didn't have to get up from the couch.

Plus, he did not make a move on me. If he had, it would have been a repeat of the Cal situation, since all of Tim's friends were talking about how he has lots of "relationships" instead of one-night stands, and how he is "in love with" this girl he met at a party but doesn't want to fuck her. Tim said, "she's the sort of girl you marry and live happily ever after with."

So it doesn't look promising for me, but at least he respected me enough not to try anything with me. He told Becky that he tends to separate love from sex; typically he doesn't love the girls he just fucks in his "relationships."

I think he's a really great guy. Maybe he was interested in me at first, but has lost interest or something. He has stopped liking and commenting on all my statuses for the most part.

Well, it sucks to like someone who doesn't like you back. But at least he wants to be my friend, and he didn't try to take advantage of me. He gave me a pretty lengthy hug at the end of the party. I hope we can continue to hang out and get to know each other better.